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Another song with strong lyrics from Keith Green.
I urge you to learn from this person.

Kadang capek juga bila sering disalah mengerti. Maksudnya baik, tapi dianggap tidak baik.
Yah... Itu normal. Biasa... Biasa capek? Hahahahaha....

I decided to write this after I watch Passion of the Christ and reading Kahlil Gibran Poet Book.
I inspired by “The Passion” especially in Via Dolorosa. I admired Mary as Jesus Mother, a person who know well Jesus destiny. And because of that, I retouch this story in Bible so all of us can get Mary's point of view.

My Jesus,
Kau tahu hatiku lebih dari diriku. Engkau tahu betapa capeknya aku.. Rasanya aku ingin mengakhiri pertandingan iman ini. Aku lelah, Tuhan... Lelah untuk berjuang. Rasanya begitu banyak pekerjaan yang harus diselesaikan.
Tuhan, aku lelah.. benar-benar lelah dengan semuanya ini.
But still, how can I quit, if You ask me to walk? How can I quit, if i see a lot of people go to Hell? How can I quit, if I see something is wrong and I have to fixed it..?
I know it's no easy, but Lord, You've promised me a reward. And You have guide us all the way. Please strengthen me again, please be my Light again, please be my path again, please be with me..

I search a note "If I should quit" by dr Greenaway and I found this in http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=11888107610&topic=7768

The story goes something like this:

Dr. Greenaway is preaching in Grand Prairie ,TX, at a Missionary Conference. In the sermon he shares the story of the skilled Doctor who is on the Mission Field of Africa, discouraged. After awhile of ministering to the people's Physical needs, he is not seeing them turn to God for their Spiritual needs. His wife is sick, and He prays to God.

"Dear God, get me out of this place. Take me back home and I'll pastor a church. Just get me and my wife out of here. I'll be faithful to you. Make my wife well. I want to serve you, but not here on the Mission Field. I'm not seeing people get saved, and all I do is pull teeth and care for their Medical Needs, so let me go back home."

Suddenly the picture changes, and the Missionary can almost see Christ and His wounds. Jesus begins to tell him that He took preached the same Gospel on the streets of Jerusalem, and they did not listen to me either. Why don't you just follow, and leave the results with Me."

The desperate Missionary does just that. Puts his heart back into his work. His wife soon gets better. Soon people are getting saved. They turn out to be some of the best Missionaries ever sent out by the Missions Board.

In the Congregation is Singer / Songwriter Ira Stanphill. He is moved by the message and the next morning writes the song, "Follow Me."


FOLLOW ME
By Ira Stanphill

I traveled down a lonely road and no one seemed to care,
The burden on my weary back had bowed me to despair,
I oft complained to Jesus how folks were treating me,
And then I heard Him so so tenderly,
"My feet were also weary upon the Calv'ry road,
The cross became so heavy I fell beneath the load,
Be faithful weary pilgrim, the morning I can see,
Just lift your cross and follow close to me."

"I work so hard for Jesus" I often boast and say,
"I've sacrificed a lot of things to walk the narrow way,
I gave up fame and fortune; I'm worth a lot to thee,"
And then I heard Him gently say to me,
"I left the throne of glory and counted it but loss,
My hands were nailed in anger upon a cruel cross,
But now we'll make the journey with your hand safe in mine,
So lift your cross and follow close to me."

Oh Jesus if I die upon a foreign field someday
'Twould be no more than love demands, no less could I repay,
"No greater love hath mortal man than for a friend to die,"
These are the words he gently spoke to me,
"If just a cup of water I place within your hand
Then just a cup of water is all that I demand,"
But if by death to living they can thy glory see,
I'll take my cross and follow close to thee.

If I Should Quit
by AG Missionary Charles E. Greenaway

If I should quit, what would the gain be?
Would the battle be lost? Would I really be free?
No, the door would not close, nor the battle cease,
Because God would have another to stand in the breach, if I quit.

If I should quit, what would I do?
Seek shelter from the heat, forget the cry of the lost?
Would I be happy for a time, then find I was through--
And spend my time praying for something to do,
saying, “God, why did I quit?”

If I should quit, I would find that God had not;
the battle would still rage, the church would march on.
The wind would keep blowing, the Spirit infilling,
Only I would be farther and farther behind, unwilling,
Wondering, “God, why did I quit?”

If I should quit, what could I say to God who called me,
and the people who sent me, and the pagan who trusted me
to show him the way? And the Spirit’s urging day after day?
God, I can’t quit!

If I should quit, let it be when I am dead--
Not while I’m alive, nor when I’m dissatisfied,
nor when I’m criticized, or minimized, or ostracized,
but please, God, let quitting time for me be-
When I am dead!

Missionary Charles E. Greenaway
DOB: 8/13/18 (MADERA, PA)
ORD.: 10/23/41 (ALABAMA DISTRICT)
DECEASED 7/31/93 (ENTERPRISE, AL)

Translation to Indonesian Language by Ps. Robert Benedictus M A

Jika aku berhenti. apa yang terjadi?
Mungkinkah perjuangan mati? Dan aku merdeka diri?
Tidak! Pintu tidak akan tertutup, perjuangan tidak akan redup.
Sebab ada TUHAN yang sanggup!

Jika aku berhenti, apa tujuan hidupku lagi...?
Mencari perlindungan dari sengatan mentari?
Dan melupakan jerit-tangis jiwa-jiwa kekasih?
Inikah bahagia diri.? Berdoa untuk kepuasan diri sendiri?

Jika aku berhenti....
Tuhan tidak akan berhenti!
Perjuangan semakin berapi-api, gereja-Nya mengabdi sampai mati!
Roh-Nya memenuhi kesatria suci...
Sementara aku semakin jauh berdiri...
Dan bertanya, “Kenapa aku berhenti?”

Jika aku berhenti....,
Apa jawabku pada Allah Sang Pengasih?
Yang mengutus dan tetap peduli......
Terhadap anak yang tidak mengerti?
Tuhan .... Seharusnya aku tidak berhenti!

Jika aku berhenti, biarlah ketika aku mati.
Bukan semasih hidup lagi berfungsi
Bukan pula ketika kecewa mengitari diri
Tidak pula ketika kritik, dan penolakan menimpa diri.
Tuhan... Jika aku berhenti,
biarlah ketika aku mati!!

"Bukankah kamu mengatakan: Empat bulan lagi tibalah musim menuai? Tetapi Aku berkata kepadamu: Lihatlah sekelilingmu dan pandanglah ladang-ladang yang sudah menguning dan matang untuk dituai. " John 4:35

Apakah aku akan tetap merasa tenang dan gembira bila tahu orang-orang yang aku jumpai setiap hari tidak mempunyai Yesus dan berjalan dengan langkah cepat ke Neraka? Apakah kepentingan diri sendiri melebihi menyelamatkan mereka?
Tidak!
Tuhan, aku tidak akan pernah berhenti.